Wasn't expecting tis hari raya is goin to turn up tis way...as much as it kills me last yr tis yr its juz much worse..I dun get to beraya as much as i wanted to..IM SO PISSED N SAD! ITZ TOTALLY UNFAIR! Thinking bck wat the hell am i working so hard for?? wat the hell am i taking off days for?? itz for U GUYZ in case u all dunno..my family members n frends! BUT LOOK! wat happen to all? Where's MY BEST FRIENDS ALL GONE TO?? Where is siti fatimah? where is faeza? where's nurul? where's alfee anwar n netty? de oni chnce to talk to is ez...she's pissed n im pissed too! U peoples are my best buddies in poly n yet when we plan for something it wun happen to be wat we wanted! ended blaming each other for the cock ups! U NOE HOW IRRITATED AM I WHEN EVERYONE STARTED TO PICK ON EACH OTHER ESPECIALLY WHEN THE BLAME IS ON ME? n the blame is always on me! YES ME! TRUE! IM THE CAUSE OF THE FALL! yeah rite like u guyz practically noe watz up wif my life...NTH! my parents kept scolding me FOR MY WORK! U WANNA NOE WAT HAPPEN IN MY LIFE,,,YES! I GOT NO LIFE! my parents scold me for comin home late hours but its due to work not tt i purposely did it..forcing me to take up something that i reali hate...making me feel so guilty when i try to lead my own life...cut away my freedom n controlling my life...i cn't say..if i say wat i wanted to do it'll be a war! n then here u guys are not showing up whenever i need u guyz so much! I always ended up losing lose n lose out totally! im always the one who's force to say sorry no matter that my wrong is juz small ones compared to u guyz big mistakes..PRETENDING I DIDNT EXIST AT ALL! how childish is that game?? n itz damnit irritating! DO U TINK ITZ NOT IRRITATING FOR ME WHEN I PLAN TO DO SOMETHING WIF U GUYZ N U GUYS MAKES ME CANCEL IT LAST MINUTE DUE TO UR FICKLE MINDED NESS! GOES THE SAME TO MY PARENTS! IM SO BORED ALONE HANGING AS IF I HAVE NO BESTFRIENDS N FAMILIES AT ALL...ITS SO UNFAIR TO ME! n if u guyz bother to say tt ur life is boring compare my life to u guyz first! whose much more boring!

TO MY CLOSE POLY FRIENDS! If u tink tt u guyz wants to ended those frenships away then so BE IT! let me die alone in hurt n pain! to ez, im sori...i noe u had a hard time trying to get us get together but u see for urself how all ur friends reacted...i am tryin to ez...im tryin..to siti, if ur life is all abt him, go to him! dun tink abt me anymore...im not in ur mind now its juz him...not tt im jealous coz u hv someone to love now but remember last time when i had someone to love n u dun I STILL HANG ARD WITH U MORE THAN HIM! until everything falls apart betw me n him..

TO MY FAMILY MY PARENTS ESP! can u stop controlling my life! cn u be more understanding at times...i dun expect u to hear everything that i said but i juz want u to give some of my freedom...n plz dun be fickle minded n lead a boring life! u noe how much i hate tt!

TO MY TRU COLLEAGUES! im happi to hv u guyz in my life...somehow u guyz bring the light in my life..i wish tt our frenships will stay tis way even tho one day we goes into different paths..love u guyz loads n esp to my siblings, ain yas nad teti hafiz..amirah i understand wat u feel with ur parents..be stronger than me dun be like me...fragile n too weak..:'(



I'm sitting in a room made up of big white walls
And in the hall , there are people looking throught
The window in the door
They know exactly what we're here for